Broke up with AJ. I'm weeping one of those loud, violent storms of tears that has very little to do with me or my emotions, just sort of exploding from somewhere inside of me. Out of me, and somehow they don't even touch what it is that I feel. I mean, it's passing go without collecting the 200 bucks. Doesn't make any sense, crap analogy, but there is.
It is better like this.
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for they
are the originals of everything
he is the nonconformist boy before everyone followed it
she is the mad girl before they collected their heartache
and colored it in,
and wiped our faces with it.
But envy is such a crowding leech
and i love them further than it has stupid little teeth.
I love them more.
This is an incredibly useless comment for this post, but it's as close as i can get to commenting on the whole blog. that's the first thing it made me think of. sorry. i'll be getting in touch.